I am so self-critical that I hate to listen to my own voice on an answering machine (is saying answering machine dating me? It’s voicemail now, isn’t it?).
Sometimes when I speak to groups, someone will videotape the presentation and give it to me. I want to destroy those, but I live with the fear that something will happen to me and my kids will never know what I looked like or sounded like because there will be no photographic evidence around.
All this to say that the last 24 hours have been a challenge for me. Because when you’re this self-critical, it’s nerve-wracking to give chapel at your kids’ school. It’s really nerve-racking to take headshots.
BUT…that’s what I’ve been up to this week. Because I’m redoing my author website (which I believe announces that I’m (still) pregnant with twins), I needed an author portrait that looked more like me than the one I took about a decade ago. So, a sweet and talented photographer and I spent an hour in a photoshoot that was really fun, but also a bit nerve-wracking.
And then there was chapel this morning. Thanks to Maddie, our twelve-year-old Cocker Spaniel, and Catie, her beautiful trainer, the attention wasn’t only on me. And I think the kids got the message that Jesus loves them…. in spite of Madison’s antics.
And in spite of an extremely self-conscious speaker.
